I’ve realised I need to stay away from social media more. Not completely, but a lot more. I have to wake up in the morning and reach for a book, not a phone. I have to knit when I’m bored, not scroll. I need to do yoga when I’m feeling anxious, not creep. I need to spend more time on me, not social media.
It’s not what you think. I don’t compare the perfection I see on social media to my own life- they’re just pictures. I don’t get jealous when I see a happy couple, I feel happy for them. I don’t hate myself when I see a beautiful woman, I in fact feel more beautiful myself. When I see someone doing very well in life, I get inspired. I’m very blessed to think that way. The problem is people I know. Seeing “friends” going out without me. Seeing the man I want, online, knowing he’s talking to someone else now. Seeing videos I post getting hundreds of views and ten likes. Getting unfriended by people I’ve known my whole life.
Social media is a society in itself, with it’s own values and expectations. It’s a place I definitely do not fit in, no matter how hard I try. So I need to go back to trying hard in the real world, on things that make me happy, or better as a person.
depressed and well dressed 