Ya I’m pretty but I’m loco.
A little while ago I purchased a few swimsuits from MatteCollection.com. I had wanted to do a haul post immediately, but I was a little self-conscious. Finally, after a couple months of intense exercise, I feel better, physically, but mostly emotionally. I am ready to embrace my body in these swimsuits! The first swimsuit is … Continue reading Teeny Weeny Swimsuit Haul
Through all of the happenings in the world, it was easy for me to feel like I was going to lose. I was either going to die by Coronavirus or by racism. I had literally given myself a timeline. And then I got sick. So sick, mentally, that my body started breaking down so that … Continue reading Focus on the Good (When You Need a Break)
I had been stuck in a very bad depressive episode (did I jinx myself?!) for about a week. It was nothing but laying in bed and crying all day and all night. I even took out my braids, which is my equivalent to shaving my head. I kept telling myself I would get through it … Continue reading Free at Last!
I saw the quote today: "Don't believe everything you think!" and I couldn't agree more. You're supposed to gas yourself up, be your biggest fan. But when you aren't, in those moments you need to trust the people who love you more than you trust yourself. If everyone is telling you you're beautiful, even if … Continue reading Lying to Yourself
While today has been struggle city, it still is a happy Monday indeed! Yes, I woke up sick. Yes, I have been out of breath this entire day. Yes, standing up without getting dizzy is impossible right now. But yes, I woke up today, which I am extremely grateful for. Yes, I made it to … Continue reading Happy Monday!
Unfortunately, my psychiatrist told me to stay on my medication because all that bad stuff comes back. It's alright! I know I'm on the right track, and I'm going to keep getting better! The very last thing I'm going to do is let it depress me! :p
On my way to see my psychiatrist for the first time in months, and I am super excited! I secretly haven't taken my medication in a while, which I would not recommend, except that I have been doing fantastic! Some things are getting worse, like my sleep, and my seasonal affective disorder, but otherwise I … Continue reading Hoping for good news
Another winter is coming in quickly, and for a while I was feeling physically sick without knowing why. When a friend pointed out to me that it's that time of the year to be extra depressed, I knew I couldn't let myself get any worse! And so, I have been fighting seasonal depression, and quite … Continue reading Fighting SAD
Hello! I have been gone for awhile, living my life! I am now in a relationship with the exact man I prayed for my entire life, still working on music, and spending time with my family. Besides that however, my summer has been rough. A childhood friend of mine committed suicide, which still and will … Continue reading Happy Depressed
depressed and well dressed 