After 300 days of January, 2020, we are finally in the second month of the new decade, and I am doing great! I have been working out regularly, singing and playing piano every single day, spending time with my love, and feeling amazing! However, life is always going to be up and down for me. Just the other day, I had the best weekend of my life with the love of my life, followed by a Monday from hell! I really had to come to terms with the fact that I may be sick for the rest of my life. Accepting that was difficult for me, but it seems to be nearly impossible for my family, who have crippling expectations that only make things worse.
I understand that expectations from family can come from a place of love. They want me to be the best me that I can be. But they don’t seem to understand that everything is just a little more difficult for me because of my depression. It’s just a little harder to get out of bed every single day. Eating seems counterproductive when you’re a sad person, dragging myself to the gym is a workout in itself. Doing things I love and things that are good for me are REALLY HARD! So I am patient with myself, understanding that goals I set may take twice as long to accomplish, and that is just part of the journey. I have to stay strong and remember that every time someone pushes their expectations onto me; they may not understand, but I understand me, and that is what matters most.
Today it snowed but the Sun was also out! I took it upon myself to dress up a little, and have a one person photoshoot!
depressed and well dressed 