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It's funny how happy you can think you are, and then something happens, and reminds you that you have depression, forever and always. For me, my trigger is love. And how I have never had it. As a twenty-five year old woman, I have never had a significant other, or even been on a date. … Continue reading To Be Loved
For the first time, I am simply doing an outfit post, because other than that, I am just loving this weather and loving life! This outfit is girly and sophisticated, and can be worn out to dinner, or a boujee barbecue. The top is a frilly black crop top from Forever 21, tucked into a … Continue reading Oh Oh Tee Dee
It's funny how strongly and instantly my mood changes with the weather! I was going to write a post explaining that I hadn't posted in a while because I have been struggling with SAD, no thanks to the worst Spring in history. But the day I took some sad aesthetic pictures, the sun came out, … Continue reading Living My Best Life
One thing I have been doing a lot lately is forgiving myself completely. Facing depression for the past five years has taken a lot out of me, and a lot away from me. It's easy to look back on all of the things I couldn't do because I was sick and feel sad, angry, or … Continue reading Forgiving Myself
One thing about depression: it's very physical. It hurts the body just as much as the mind. At this point, I am not feeling particularly sad about anything, but physically, it feels like it's kicking my butt, literally. My body is always in pain, and worst of all, I am so tired I could cry. … Continue reading Pushing Through the Fatigue: a Lil Haul
I haven't posted in a while, and quite frankly, even now as I write, I am having trouble deciding what to write. What can I say, I am actually doing alright. I have been feeling myself slowly getting better. That doesn't mean there is no sadness, no tears, no feelings of loneliness or hopelessness. There … Continue reading Happy
I've been dealing with a lot lately, and, as is usually the case with depression, I have people who understand me and people who don't. Some people have been so supportive I thank God for putting such wonderful people into my life. From others, however, things like my emotional strength and self-love have been called … Continue reading bodysuit haul! (I am me)
The New Year has just begun, and I truly hope everyone is sticking to their career resolutions, their new diets, and workout regimens. I myself, as I have said, do not prescribe to the new-year-new-me belief, because quite frankly, I'm still the same old me, with the same old depression and same old stomach fat. … Continue reading eleven Days In.
New Year's Eve is only a day away! Looking back on 2017, for me, it had it's highs (bought my first car, met amazing family in the U.S. Virgin Islands) and lows (hospitalized for suicide attempt, generally the saddest year of my life). With the new year coming up, I refuse to fall into the … Continue reading NEW year’s eve lookbook!
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